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Sunday, November 19, 2006

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 17:37:43 GMT

20061119

What happened to this site...oh yeah Myspace. Haha so I update knowing I wont get one single comment becuase everyone talks to me on myspace. Why am I updating then? I have no clue. Felt like it I guess. My birthday is real soon. 23 days in fact. Ryan and I will be together 7 months on Wed. which will also be one month till he comes home. Happy face. Okay the end.

I love Ryan Music.

Toodles.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 01:05:11 GMT

20060917

I hate hospitals...I love Staind.

I love Ryan Music.

20060909

X-Fest is in a week from today. All I want is to shake Aaron's hand and tell him thanks.

I'm in love. That's no secret. In 10 days I leave for the Island to see Ryan. I'm so proud of him. I love him and I know he loves me.

(smile)

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 23:25:34 GMT

20060824

Myspace is better.

I got a letter from Ryan today. It made me extra happy. He's sweet. We've been together 4 months and 2 days now. Best 4 months of my life even if he's been gone most of it. I'm proud of him and I love him very much. Hehe my trip to see him is going to be awesome. He's taking me to homecoming I thought that was very sweet of him. I'm crazy about him. I can't see how anyone could have ever done him wrong.

SMILE. Life is great. Things are so much better now. I have an amazing boyfriend.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 00:24:38 GMT

20060823

Xanga sucks.

Friday, August 11, 2006

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 19:29:18 GMT

20060811

I miss my grandfather. Him being gone makes everything harder to deal with. He always had good advice and always seemed to know just what to say to make it all seem better. I wish I could be more optimistic like he was. Don't get me wrong he had his moments like everyone else but he never let it drag him down.

Anyways...

load off my shoulders things got a lot better today considering how I felt yesterday as you can read down below this from the 10th.

*If your a junior or senior you'll find this true and it probably get's on your nerves as well...

Apparently it's cool for stupid ass people to gather around and talk right where others are trying to walk. Sorry I missed that fucking memo.*

In other news about school it's a bore compared to last year I miss my friends that all graduated. Construction sucks ass as well. My classes are okay. Adv. Cond. with Coach Hart is for sure the greatest. CP U.S. History is awesome as well as CP English 3. I can't wait to get into college and be a history or english teacher.

In other news...

I got the new Breaking Benjamin cd today finally. It's their best so far. The acoustic/piano version of Diary Of Jane is amazing. The cd is amazing. I'm very pleased.

I got a letter from Ryan yesterday. The things he says to me makes me feel like I must be the most important girl in the world. I feel complete knowing someone cares about me like that. Knowing he is the one who cares about me like that. It's amazing. Everyone should find love like that. Ryan is an amazing person. I hope he believes that now.

I love you Ryan Music!

1 month and 9 days to go before I leave to see him.

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20060810

Yay. Life sucks again. I am so happy cough... (sarcastic)... cough. Yeah anyways life pretty much sucks ass right now. I'm so sick of bullshit but hey this is Ashland and that's all this place is just plain fucking bullshit.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 21:23:21 GMT

Letters are the greatest things ever. Especially when they have I love you written in them a lot : )

<3 I LOVE RYAN MUSIC!

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 18:10:16 GMT

I love rain. Where did it go lol. It's so hott out. Pool = happy me when it's a million degrees outside.

I have the most amazing boyfriend. Being happy and feeling good about yourself knowing you have nothing to worry about is such a great feeling. I don't regret anything. Not even the months of waiting. It was all worth it. I can't wait to go see him graduate. Nice weekend at the beach to lay back and relax and be happy. It's going to be so much fun.

Sigh haha toodles.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 00:36:07 GMT

I went to visit you today but you weren't there. Only traces of you remain now. That's all we have left. All I have left and a memories to keep forever. Nothing is the same...nothing will ever be the same. I miss you papaw.

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Another letter from Ryan today. I miss him. I miss him like hell. I love him.

I'm not having such a good day...and things seem to be getting worse.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 17:36:31 GMT

Letter from Ryan today! Makes me sooooo happy! He hurt his shoulder : ( poor thing. I love him tons.

Hmm I think I might take up golfing since my track days are done. I'm going to miss it like hell. There's no greater feeling then the one you get before that gun goes off. I feel like a caged bird who can't fly. There's nothing worse then being away from the one thing that has set you free for 8 years. Oh well I like golfing. My grandfather golfed so my mom said I'd probably be good at it since I'm just like him. He taught me how to put but I don't know... I need him now more then ever but I know it isn't possible.

Oh well. Good day.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 01:40:07 GMT

Rant...

Ryan Music is the greatest thing to ever happen to me and I'll be damned to hell if anyone thinks I'm going to break up with him just because he is doing something he wants to do trying to make something of himself. How dare anyone think it isn't worth the wait. This is something he wanted to do and so help me god I'll be here when he returns. So if it really bothers anyone that much then get the hell over it and find someone else to bitch to.

End rant.

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Back from N.Y. the highlight of the whole trip...spening the day in Little Italy to watch the World Cup. Italy won. It was a mad house in New York that day. The rest of the trip...well whatever.

I miss Ryan. I miss him a lot. I love reading his letters. Makes me happy. Makes me smile. : ) <3

Doctor tomorrow...for my knee.

8/8/06 this cd will be mine. 7/30/06 my ass had better be in Columbus for their show.